Ant Farm

I don't usually blog about my dreams-- but I'll bore my friends with them because that's the kind of friend I am-- but this dream was so vivid that I can't shake it. I was with some friends, driving around, and we wound up in a warehouse somewhere. They said a really great band was playing there tonight.

When I got there, I saw it was Nirvana playing. There were these huge speakers, some laying on their sides. Kurt was sitting on one that was on its side. He was off to the side, near the back, mostly in shadow. He was singing "On a Plain" while sitting with one knee up, the hand with the microphone propped on his knee. His voice was lovely.

In the back of my mind, I knew he was dead. But none of that bothered me. I wanted to get closer to hear better. When he got to the chorus, he held his mic out to Novoselic. Novoselic was turned away from the audience. He stood, facing the large speaker, but turned slightly towards Kurt. He started out singing the chorus, but then sang an entirely different song. Everything got very quiet. There was just Novoselic singing. It was a beautiful song and it moved Kurt deeply. He cried and held the mic out for Novoselic's song.

It was only when I woke up singing the song that I realized it was Eels' "Ant Farm". That song always moved me. And I've had it in my head all day.

Here's the lyrics to "Ant Farm":

hate a lot of things
but i love a few things
and you are one of them

hard to believe
after all of these years
but you are one of them

walk down the street
i'm thinking:
everybody move along
i've got a sad-hearted needing
to belong

nevertheless
it's all the mess you made
but i can let it go

walk down the street
i'm thinking:
look at all the ants in a farm
i've got a sad-hearted feeling
to harm

hate a lot of things
but i love a few things
and you are one of them